Stories Are Sacred

As they are woven with so many shadows, scars and sacred codes of soul retrieval

The paradox is that I am here to share mine freely

To show you how I woke my Wildlight Within & Reclaimed my Radiance!

So that you may see a semblance of yourself within this greater Cosmic Mirror & Tapestry of Life

So that you may know the keys to your Heaven on Earth reside within the puzzle pieces of your own past

So that you may know who you are working with when you decide to say “YES” to your own growth & becoming

To learn from someone who has intimately walked this upside-down and inside-out journey amidst so much societal conditioning, stubbornness, and their own fair share of self-imposed suffering

From someone who is deeply committed and devoted to this unconventional path of FREEDOM from a place of fierce tenderness, courageous compassion, and no-nonsense TRUTH

While these words cannot fully encapsulate the full expression of my journey with all its twists and turns, I will do my best to share the golden nuggets of wisdom and transitional moments that led from one phase to the next

As a hope and prayer that you too may Wake Your Wildlight Within & Reclaim your Radiance!

this is my story…

Phase 1 - The Wild One

During the first phase of my life journey, I was a Wild Child with no conscious concept of the Divine other than the beauty of Nature around me and the pure innocence within me

My parents say the only time they could really give me a love was at the end of the day when I was so exhausted and too tuckered out from playing all day

I was a tomboy at heart with a bowl cut to prove it who loved running barefoot through the woods, catching frogs and climbing trees with my neighborhood friends, mostly boys

While the world was my playground, Nature is where I felt most at home

Phase 2 - The Sensitive One

During 2nd Grade, I experienced an incident that made me receive a belief that “there is something inherently wrong with me”

As a result, I projected that belief onto everything within me and around me and I became painfully self-aware and decided it was not safe to breathe and just be me anymore

So I hid as best as I could (which was really hard when you’re the tallest girl in your class, let alone the tallest kid in your entire grade lol)

I was incredibly shy and sensitive and I didn’t realize other people didn’t feel the same sensations that were constantly berating my brain and body

I didn’t understand what was me and not me so it all just felt like me (if that makes sense)

I also didn’t understand why everyone seemed to be so happy even though I could feel that something was inherently off…

Something right there on the edge of my awareness and tip of my tongue

I pushed these feelings aside though (as well as many others) and tried to blend in some more while other parts of me were very stubborn on NOT following the crowd

Phase 3 - The Strong One

Soccer was the primary place where I felt like I could be all of myself because it was the one place I could act from pure instinct and PLAY

I followed my love of the game to the college of my dreams after making a sincere heartfelt prayer to the Universe when I was 11 years old

It was my first long-term manifestation come true - one that I nurtured for over 6 years day-in and day-out

However, after my freshmen year of college, I didn’t want anything to do with the sport, because I lost my love of the game due to the environment around me and within me

I went home that winter wanting to give up, but my Dad so wisely shared: “Well, you can give up or give it everything you’ve got”

So I went back and gave it everything I had. I gained 10lbs of muscle, passed all my fitness tests with flying colors, earned straight A’s, started scoring goals and earning more playing time

However, there was a huge catch and blind spot I continued to bypass:

I was so in my masculine, so in the action-oriented perfectionist model of the mind that thought it could control everything around me, that I completely bypassed the intelligence of my body that was desperately in pain

This quantum scale of balance severely swung the other way and manifested itself as a season-ending injury during my sophomore year where my knee completely collapsed backward and inward releasing alll those unprocessed emotions I had been carrying for who knows how long

It was literally like opening a floodgate of energy, where my e-motions ⸺ energy in motion ⸺ just wouldn’t stop. For a long time, I thought this was the day I broke down, but it was actually the day I broke OPEN

Phase 4 - The Broken One

This catapulted me into what Carl Jung calls, The Dark Night of the Soul, a period of time that feels like time stands still

Nothing matters as the matter of all things starts to re-organize back into an organic fashion

It is an intimate and sacred initiation and a descent into the womb tomb of The Great Mother to be reborn anew

Of course, I knew nothing of this at the time 😅

I just knew I was severely depressed, suicidal, and anxious about anything and everything

All of my masking and high-functioning tendencies could no longer work

So I let myself surrender… but not all the way

I was still holding on to things that were being asked to be let go of because I felt like I had something to prove, to myself, my family, my Dad…

Striding away from the typical societal path before me was also far too scary and overwhelming to even consider

So I went back to college after taking some time away and pushed through another 2 grueling years of soccer and school. While I graduated with honors, I was mostly miserable during my last season of soccer and bitter during graduation.

All I wanted to do was run away to the woods and shut the door on all this noise & nonsense

Phase 5 - The No One

To survive this period of my life, I started smoking cannabliss to disassociate from all the pain and confusion of living within my body, not living my truth, feeling so disconnected from my God-given Radiance within, and to fake a false intimacy to myself, others, and Life itself

Unsurprisingly, I hurt myself and many other people in the process

This coping mechanism stayed with me for another 10 years as I was terrified of fully feeling the silent stillness & raw reality of Life both within me and around me

Every day was a battle fighting what I let into my psyche

Fighting what was feeding off this wound of unworthiness

Fighting the part of me that felt so unworthy of God’s love; my Radiance within

That I sought it in everything outside of me instead reaching deep within

Phase 6 - The Brave One

About 2 years after college, after achieving many of the things society says you need to “be successful,” I consciously started my spiritual awakening journey after a particularly bad day in a series of bad days when I asked myself this seemingly simple question:

How do I truly want to feel?

And that’s when a sincere feeling surged forth from the very center of my heart and hit me right upside the head!

radiant.

This one word became my tether and anchor point as I started to follow the subtle nudges, whispers, and mysterious moments that my Wildlight within laid out before me

It led me to feminine-form Ayurveda & Tantra where I learned how to take radical responsibility of my mind, body, and spirit through the holistic elemental lens of life

i.e. I learned how to nurture my Soul through the wisdom of The Great Mother to bring more of myself here and now

It led me to Muse Alchemy, a somatic embodiment facilitator training, where I learned how to listen to the flow of wisdom within my body to alchemize the next evolution of myself through artistic expression

i.e. I learned how to move and shake off the stagnancy of separation to allow my Soul’s truest expression to shine forth and take up more space in my beloved body

It led me back to soccer, this time as a coach, to Find My Fire, retrieve my voice, as well as many other subtle energetic lessons to remember how to lead and support a large group towards one goal as one team through the many ups and downs of a long-winded journey

i.e. I remembered how to be a heart warrior: a leader with a fierce passion of unwavering faith

It also led me to The Song of Sophia, a plant-taught womb-wise Divine Feminine Christ Mystery School with ties to my Celtic ancestors where I learned how to slow down, allow the medicine of the moment to flow, and sing to the parts of myself that were calling me home on a whole ‘nother level…

i.e. I learned how to sing myself into form and shine my radiance from the crystalline center of who I am

Phase 7 - The Radiant One

Here I am bringing alll parts of myself here and now

The super sensitive innocent creative wild child with a warrior’s heart who’s here to PLAY & also PROTECT what matters most ⸺ our Wildlight Within

Realizing the medicine I carry is the RADIANCE I sought all those long years ago that have been retrieved through the feminine arts of life, death, and rebirth

Of creativity, compassion, & courage to express that which was once hidden & forbidden

As well as the masculine mastery of a day-in and day-out deliberate devotion to God

A holy marriage of sound & light

Of frequency in form

An attunement to Christ consciousness and its inherent codes of freedom & liberation of the Divine Wise Child within

To RECLAIM OUR RADIANCE ⸺ our birthright ⸺ and remember WE ARE A WALKING WILDLIGHT

To breathe & just be exactly as the Divine dreamed us to be!

May we have the courage to Wake Our Wildlight Within and Reclaim Our Radiance

May we be held and supported by The Trinity - The Holy Family of the Christ Father, Great Mother Sophia, and Divine Radiant Child Within

To Remember we are and will always be The Bridge between Heaven on Earth

As Stars Incarnate

As a Wildlight Walking itself home

Sparking this Remembering for all of our Brothers and Sisters around the world

Blessed May It Be!

Love,

Sarah-Sophia

Experience & Credentials

Southwest OR Soccer Player of the Year 2012
Division I Student Athlete with PAC-12 Academic Honorable Mentions, 2015 & 2016
B.A. in Journalism - Advertising from the University of Oregon, 2016
600-hr Feminine-Form Ayurveda & Tantra Level 2 Ayurvedic Health Coach Certification from The Shakti School
Muse Alchemy Somatic Embodiment Facilitator Training Through Maya Night
US Soccer D-License - Coached My First 11v11 Team to State Cup Champions. Took My First 7v7/9v9 Team On An Underdog Journey From Losing Nearly Every Game to Winning Tournaments And Moving Up A Bracket Within 3 Years
Built An All-Girls Soccer Training Company Called, Find Your Fire, To Provide Soccer & Self-Development Skills To The Next Generation of Soccer Girls Warriors
Holistic Doula Certification Through The Matrona by Whapio
Song of Sophia Living School of Divine Nature 13-Pillar Path ⸺ Sophianic Wave Living Alchemical Touch Certification Through The Song of Sophia by Eliza Maora